Dejavu

November 19th, 2006 by leenahing

Ever come across times when you are stumbled onto an online service that connects classmates via the Internet..ever come across times when you had an unexplainable desire to find out about these certain people..What were my memories of them? What would they look like now? What were they doing for a living? What had become of them? Where were they in relation to their belief in God?I grew up with these people. I have no idea who these people are now,just seeing their names was like attending a reunion without really being there. I dont know why I’m in such a remisniscent mood.

At 22,I am still rather frivolous and need to grow up.I am bending under a weight of uncertainties. Sometimes a dreadful fear comes over me that I’m misanthropes.:p Ignore it, my thought may wander far and dragged to the impossible. Sometimes I have an awful habit of writing impulsively when i first think things and then posting it beyond recall. But if sometimes thoughtless and ungrateful, I never mean it.

The Bible teaches us that we are all wired for relationships.All this just confirms that God made us for relationships – relationships with him and with each other. When you think of it, there’s nothing in life more important than relationships.They are the one tangible connection we have to eternity. Some of them – I hope all of them – I will see in heaven. I remember what the bible says, if one soul is saved, the heaven rejoice!!!

Here is the song I like. I will end here with this song. Enjoy and be blessed when you read through it.

- Testify To Love Lyrics

Verse 1
——-
All the colors of the rainbow
All of voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
That reaches out to find where love begins

Every word of every story
Every star in every sky
Every corner of creation lives to testify

Chorus
——
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I’ll be a witness in the silences
when words are not enough

With every breath I take
I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love

Verse 2
——-
From the mountains to the valleys
From the rivers to the sea
Every hand that reaches out
Every hand that reaches out to offer peace

Every simple act of mercy
Every step to kingdom come
All the Hope in every heart
will speak what love has done

Complicated

November 15th, 2006 by leenahing

" Thanks be to goodness for what have been done" breathed Lee Na in devoult relief….My thought wander far. Travelling. Jungle Trekking. Jogging  as much.Exercising without limitation.There’s too much scope for imagination in the wind. Well, that’s another hope gone. My life is a perfect graveyard of buried hopes. Oppsss…too mean to say that :P But true, there are many things left unfulfilled.

   Exams over. I drop my breastplate and shield of wisdom and knowledge down as the exam drops its curtain down, and  I pin it with a star. Ya..it’s over. Anyway, I am not feeling excited to the extent the joyous, tear-stained smile of faith triumphant, hope fulfilled. The exam fever still reside in my soul. I feel drained of energy and tired. BUT, I did enjoy the study week and all the preparation i made. Do it smart but not hard is my motto. Study hard and play harder is what i emphasize all the time in the process of learning. But the negative element is ( i have to admit ) that i didnt invest sufficient effort in to studying instead consume a lot of energy into having fun :P

  Thank God for His sustaining grace and protection upon His children.  Thank God!!!! Everything is made into pitch perfection when God intervene.

The difference

October 18th, 2006 by leenahing

I got uo early one morning and rushed

right into the day

I had so much to accomplish

that i didnt have time to pray

Problems just tumbled about me

and heavier come each task

" Why doesnt God help me?" I wondered

He answered, " you didnt ask."

I wanted to see joy and beuty

but the day toiled on gray and bleak

I wondered why God doesnt show me

He said, "but you didnt seek."

I try to come into God’s presence,

I used all my keys at the lock

God gently and lovingly chided

"My child, you didnt knock."

I woke up early this morning and

paused before entering the day

I had so much to accomplish

that I had to take time to pray

October 2nd, 2006 by leenahing

Hardship is the perfect glass wherein we truly see and know ourselves. Just as human suffering knows no boundaries, the human spirit also knows no boundaries when it comes to compassion and care. I have to keep reminding myself that " I have the strength to face all condition by the power that Christ gives me" (Phill 4:13) This belief will help me to face my suffering and hardships in a new perspective.

What is the seed of equivalent benefit in my adversity? When things goes well, we feel elated. When hardships come, we sink into the miry clay. There may be just a few apples but they are enough to tarnish the whole situation.

I always describe myself as the rubber: flexible, stretchable, elastic…I am stretched but not crushed.No matter how I have been stretched, I will remain my shape but recently i have gone through the rolling waves of circumstances that truly stretch me to maximum. I have to confront and resolve the underlying barriers which seem to be continuously strike me like the flamming arrows. I lose the effectiveness by keeping my life so tightly strung that I am always tense. This   unable me to do my best work with nerves taut or frayed from constant pressure. Ever come across time when you are in the verge of giving up? I told myself " I want to be an island! A rock feels no pain, an island never cries….It will be cool!

Somehow I really thank God, when I open up and unload my emotional burden, He lend an ear throughout the bumpy journey. God is my tower of refuge and the beacon in the darkness.

Do you believe that mountains can move or be moved? Believe it or not, the answer is YES. May it be the greatest volcanic mountain or the mountains of problem we face, it can be removed. This brought me to the famous song " WHEN YOU BELIEVE" The lyrics says it so well: …..Although we know there’s much fear We were moving mountains long before we knew we could. There can be miracles when you believe……So in times when all your hope is gone And you go through life afraid, In your heart there lies a hopeful song…for all your prayers, they will be heard."

It’s pitch darkness outside and the clock strikes at 2.45a.m.Silent and calm. Ironically, my mind is not still and calm as the lovely night bears. I am isolated.However It’s good for me to have my quiet time. I have abundance of thought and reflection to pen on,and it just flows out without holding back, but I have to prioritised the things i ought to do right now, not allowing my thought to wander around. Remember the good old saying " an idle mind is the devil’s workshop."

I just need some time to find rest my soul in Him, be still in His presence, sense His heartbeat again..When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. For my dear friends who bear sorrows and traverse the emotional minefield of painful memories, or you have been hurt or disaippointed, I will uphold you in prayer.

My Cell Group

September 14th, 2006 by leenahing

My Cell Groups for this academic year are Ephraim(PKA) and Eirene(EPCC). Both of my CGs start with the letter ‘E’! Ephraim is one of the 12 tribes of Israel in the Bible whereas Eirene means peace. I like the significant name:P Last week we have the combined CG outing. We went for dim sum and bowling. It has been a blessing to be part of the CG where i can grow spiritually and it’s glad to see all the freshies start to join us.

I really salute all the CG leaders who invest plenty of hard work to conduct the CG. I can understand how stressed they would face, how much they endure the hardship and all the difficulties that they might experience. I truly thank them from the bottom of my heart and appreciate their great effort. Thanks for all the blessing that they have pour in my life.

When it comes to CG thingy, I don’t have much to say but it creates ripples in the ocean of my heart. And I dont know why i cant utter a word to describe it!!!

My true momentum…

September 7th, 2006 by leenahing

Ji_mi_1   I feel like turning  my back on lessons, and running away to play with the weather. There are such lots of adventures out in the fields. What i want to do the most is- climb the many mountains as i can and go on a voyage across the oceans!!! crazy right? A girl like me want to conquer the mountains and make a voyage across the Atlantic?? These are my dreams..and I am a maniac into it!!! i have a very wandering spirit,though i haven’t as yet had much chance to develop it. It’s an intoxicating, exhilarating, calling of the nature. I want to close my books and be off over the hills to race with the wind!  "Colors of the Wind" ( the song in Pocahontas ) just come into my mind. It really speaks close to my heart. As the Mother Willow in this Disney movie said "Listen carefully, you will understand… "

Colours Of The Wind

by Vanessa Williams

You think you own whatever land you land on
The earth is just a dead thing you can claim
But I know every rock and tree and creature
Has a life, has a spirit, has a name

You think the only people who are people
Are the people who look and think like you
But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger
You learn things you never knew
You never knew

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon?
or ask the grinning bobcat why he grinned
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountains?
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind?
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind?

Come run the hidden pinetrails of the forest
Come taste the sun-sweet berries of the earth
Come roll in all the riches all around you
And for once never wonder what they’re worth

The rainstorm and the rivers are my brothers
The heron and the otter are my friends
And we are all connected to each other
In a circle in a hoop that never ends

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon?
or let the eagle tell you where he’s been
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountains?
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind?
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind?

How high does the sycamore grow
If you cut it down, then you’ll never know

And you’ll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
Or whether we are white or copper-skinned
We need to sing with all the voices of the mountains
We need to paint with all the colours of the wind
You can own the Earth and still
All you’ll own is Earth until
You can paint with all the colors of the wind

As i look at the blue sky above, the green plantation under my feet, the mountains span over the countries, the no-boundaries sea and oceans, and all God’s creations, I am so thankful.All these is beyond human description..Amazing God…His glory is shown through His creation..

I am a nature lover and I am glad i do. My deep affection for the nature have never been simple. The beauty of nature can be a therapy to obliterate the scar. If you are bending under a weight of sorrow and burden, turn to nature and it is the cheapest medicine.

As " Colors of the Wind" has occupied and overwhelmed me so much now, my mind is blank to proceed with my own  words now, so I would like to pen down here. I hope that you will enjoy the lyrics and appreciate it. The song is very nice, very therapuetic…. 

-nature lover- Lee Na

I am sorry Lord for the things I have made it.

September 5th, 2006 by leenahing

When the music fades, all is stripped away..                                                                                                                                                                                              And I simply come,longing just to bring  something that’s of worth that will bless your heart…     

I am sorry Lord for the things I have made it,                                                                                                                              when it’s all about you, it’s all about you Jesus …                                                                              

Lord, when my obedience to you is challenged,                                           help me to be strong and Angel_of_godfaithful to you…                                                                                                                                                                                                                  

Procrastination is the thieve of time!

September 5th, 2006 by leenahing

  Lee Na is back again…time really flies! Whoosh….this is the sound that I can describe how fast it travelled through out this hectic semester. My time was really stolen especially my leisure time for exercise, it’s totally gone!I felt terribly bad to sacrifice my passionate outdoor activities.The disgusting,time consuming, never ending assignments have crushed me to the ground…I need to be nurtured and restored! My time management is absolutely poor or I can say that i misused it, take it for granted and even procrasctinate everything i should do…cant believe this semester is coming to the end soon and the one month semester break is beckoning not far away! the semester had just gone and i cant wait for the next longer break! wow, time flies by in a blink of eye!!!!

Just want to share with you what I did during the short semester break. I went to City Harvest Church for the COnference called Emerge..Wow, it’s sooo happening! God has blessed His people with great talent and gift. This annual Emerge was truly an eye opener for me. I am sure it’s a tremendous blessing to the youth who seek the Lord faithfully. I thank God that my younger sister has this wonderful oppurtunity to be a member of City Harvest Church.I am inspired by her great faith in God. God has graciously brought her there for a purpose. Be the salt and light and shine for Jesus!

Conquer Gua Tempurung!!!

August 24th, 2006 by leenahing

Gt_312 I wrote this article for my church campus ministry last semester, take time to read and be blessed…

      Rise and shine! Take an initiative step to explore and discover the wonder of God’s creations really create a quantum leap in my ability to get closer to God and attune to His riches.

      On the vibrant and pleasant morning, no matter how comfortably I was cocooned in my thick blanket, I have to leave my “comfort zone” to explore Gua Tempurung in Perak.

       With expectant faces waiting for the adventurous trip, the sixteen of us ( campus students from BM&BI service ) were gathering at Pekaka at 6.45a.m. and we promptly split into two vans. Thanks Yun Leng and Hui Ping for driving the van for few hours.

        By the time we reached our destination, ( it took approximately 3 hours by the way), all of us unanimously agreed to take the utmost challenge – the Grand Tour which is the most exciting, risky and challenging tour among all the other packages. Hehe, as the generation Y, we have the spirit and enthusiasm of adventure!

         After the obligatory group photo, we headed towards Gua Tempurung energetically. As we take our first step into the cave, I can sense the intense feeling of pleasant excitement among us. Everyone was in a state of euphoria! With the efficient lead and funny explanation of the tour guide, we were so amazed by the natural formation of the limestone cave. The marvelous pillar of stalactites and stalagmites, the icicle-shaped formation and the crystal-like stones had caught our attention. The steady dripping of water is the natural techniques of sculpture in the cave. This nature art of carving and shaping figures on the wall of the cave are the master piece of the nature itself. The figures we saw are horse, bird, elephant, fox, soldier, statue, etc. It takes long period of time to form the unique structure and terrain of the cave.

         Above is just the beginning part and “warm up” zone of the four hours tour. The more adventurous zone are beckoning us! As we soldier on, we expect the more challenging tasks. We climbed the long flights of the stairs which seems like no ending point, and Vanessa’s leg was shaking, haha! Along the way, we were wandering in the pitch darkness and stumbled over the rock due to uneven ground. It’s really complete darkness if we did not switch on our torch light.

          Here’s the climax of the whole tour. It’s the most risky and challenging part. We have to climbed up and down the uneven rock face, slide down following the slope of the rock face without any safety equipments to continue the ascent or descent. So we have to develop the power of endurance and lend each other a helping hand. Be patient and understanding. We have to overcome all the obstacles to pass the test. I can see faces tense with anxiety, mental, emotional or nervous strain, screaming sound that is unable to control ( girls are expert in screaming besides crying :p ). We cheer up and encourage each other to relieve our tension and fear. Anyway, words of encouragement didn’t work to relieve the inner fear, and I found out girls can cope their fear by screaming that comes naturally. :D ( screaming + crying = girls’ best weapon? ) Finally, we, the survivors reached the Top of the World! All the difficulties did not deter us from completing the mind and physical challenging task nor we complain but truly enjoy.

         After the climbing and sliding, we are going to walk in the water, and for sure, we are to get wet! We keep all our things in the plastic bags to avoid any damages especially the mobile phone. We crawled and trudged in the water tunnels, the water level reach our knees and chests, we crouched and lower our body to avoid the hanging stalactites from the roof, and we squeezed through the narrow gap or restricted space in the cave. Some of us, especially the taller ones, have the higher possibility to hit the piece of rock protruding from the roof of the cave on the head. Hehe, it’s the disadvantage to the tall people to get in the cave. :p

          After 4 hours of getting shielded from the sunlight, finally we saw the beam of light which is so warm and bright. We knew that we have reached the exit. Just like the ray of sunlight, a beam of pleasure, bright and happy look appeared on everyone’s warm face. The trip seems challenging and full of dangers, but surely it’s also full of series of excitements and fun. I really thank our lovely God that none of us get injured during the entire trip. On the other hand, it has been a therapeutic exercise during the semester break.

       It was a fun outing. We have established a qualitative fellowship. Personally, I like this adventurous outing very much. It did not waste my good time of rest, but it taught me to appreciate my quality time with others and the mother nature. I learnt to socialize and dealing with all kinds of people in a different environment. Explorations or just spend time admiring the wonders of nature is one of the great way to serve as a recreational space in our hectic life. I have the deep affection for all kinds of adventurous explorations and expeditions related to nature. I am enriched by each place I had visited. It’s not just about testing our physical fitness or build up our stamina, but as well as train up our mental, emotional and social fitness, as we were put through a range of adventure disciplines. Here’s hoping that there will be more to come in future! :p

My cell group- Abraham

August 24th, 2006 by leenahing

Dscn6986      I wrote this in PKA’s newsletter last year, hope who read this

     will be blessed…

    Abraham- Father of a multitude, as the song goes: Father Abraham has many sons, many sons have Father Abraham…. Clear enough, my CG is called Abraham! M2M ( Mary and Mandy ) are the CGL and ACGL. They are very committed and show great enthusiasm to CG, otherwise it could be end up a real mental torture, because we as the members are troublesome, hehe..

          CG is the nerve center of the CF, it serves as a refreshing place to be, provides a space to well balanced godly life and creates a true momentum to grow spiritually. Whether you realize it or not, just think ( imagination made things beautiful ) of the immense happiness and manifolds of blessings that CG and CF will generates.

           CG is the pillar strength and inspiration to CF. As the proverbial saying “behind every successful man, there’s a woman”. I will say that “ behind every CF, there’s a CG”. Make sense? :p  Let us rise and shine! Let God’s words and joy become contagious and reach out to our friends ( friendship evangelism ) and to spur one another towards Christ like maturity.

           To do my recollection on CG, I vividly remember the moments of laughter and sharing. CG is the witness of good time and sweet fellowship. We have hiking, creative outings, birthday celebrations, combined CG, overnight stay and games beside the obligatory bible study. We are put through a range of recreations and funs to establish a good fellowship and keep us sane after a hard day in campus. We lose our effectiveness by keeping our lives so tightly strung. If it seems we can’t relax, Jesus may be inviting us to take a break to rest a while. If our body, soul and spirit are to function at their best, time is needed for renewal, time for leisure, time for rest. Creative outings or games function as catalyst in fellowship and for unity. Personally, attend CG is not wasting my time for good rest or study, on the other hand it taught me to appreciate the quality time of fellowship with brothers and sisters. CG also creates a true quantum leap in my ability to get closer to others and God. A collections of memories and therapeutic bible study worth more than spending time frivolously. A strange, sweet feeling began to take me over when I reflect on CG.

            Abraham CG is quite big in number through multiplication, and I really proud of it! We gather not by accident but God finds us and restore us to relationship with Him. We are created genetically different that made us unique from each other, but the bible says it so well: And all that believed were together, and had all things common. ( Act 2:44 ) Because we are human, many times our differences can present challenges in effectively communicating with others. We are individuals, each uniquely designed. In our uniqueness, we also have commonalities because we have the same creator. God is love and we are created in His image. We share one common love, the love of Christ.

      A special prayer for all the committed CGL, ACGL and all the CG members:

            Faith to guide you through the years, satisfactions in your work,

            And joy in what you do, warm and loving fellowship,

            Peace of heart and mind,

            These are God’s most precious gifts,

            the everlasting kind.

            What better time to tell you,

            That you mean so much to me,

             That I hope your life is blessed

             With all God’s best continually.